THANK YOU TO OUR SOLDIERS!
It's
Memorial Day - May 27, 2013 and although I woke up with my usual head and neck pain, I wasn't burdened with an additional migraine attack. For that I am thankful, just
as I'm thankful for all our service men and women who work so hard to keep our
country great.
As
cliché as it is to say I can't believe how fast this year is going, I'm going
to say it "this year is flying by." So fast in fact my son will be
graduating in less than a month - YIKES! There are a number of projects that
need to be completed around and in my house before his graduation party.
Yesterday
was beautiful here in western New York so my son and I were able to take advantage
of it by doing some desperately needed yard work. But let's be very clear, I can't
do yard work of any kind due to my chronic head and neck pain and other issues,
but my 18-year-old son is very capable and thankfully, healthy. My son DID the
work and I, well, stood around and directed things - which I'm pretty good at.
As
I watched my son work I became increasingly uncomfortable and agitated. I stood
around feeling helpless while he filled up the wheel barrel with the blocks "we"
were moving from the back of the yard to the front of the yard for the new
front border "we" were building. I can't lift or move blocks nor was
I able to pick up any of the enormous old stones that needed to be dug up and
removed before he could put the blocks down. I moved a bit of dirt around, got
him water and tried not to get to cranky.
But
soon feelings of inadequacy suddenly crept in - my inability to maintain the yard,
the projects around the house that take forever to complete and my failure to keep
up the laundry as I once did. The list goes on and on all due to a traumatic
brain injury in 1996. As my negative thought process continued, I watched my
wonderful son work. Then suddenly something clicked - what was I thinking? I was
outside on a beautiful day with my "boy" and my inner voice was not playing
nice.
I
made a choice at that moment and changed my thought process. I wasn't going to let
negative thinking ruin the day. I realized too that we're not going to have
many more days like this, so I made a conscious effort to abandon negativity
and enjoy the day and simply be "in the moment." That doesn't come easy for me, but yesterday was wonderful.
Doesn't my border look great? Next
week "we" can do the other side.
Thanks for reading and feel well,
Nancy